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Since mid-May I have spent at least part of each weekend in my former hometown, helping my 84-year-old mother deal with the logistics of dealing with Medicaid, the OSF hospital system, the Illinois Department of Aging, nagging Hospice aids and trying to convince my older sister that she had to face reality... due to dizzy spells, blackouts, and too-frequent falls which were a result of her stage 4 lung cancer and the medications she was taking, it simply wasn't safe for her to continue living alone in her apartment. Memorial Day weekend, she was moved to a nursing home; Mom, younger Sister, and I were basically working for entire month of June clearing the apartment, because the lease (which we finally found) expired on July 1st. It was exhausting, heart-breaking, frustrating.... and even now, Older Sister still seems to think that she might be able to 'go home' eventually... she keeps wanting more stuff brought to the nursing home.... but there's barely room for what she already has there....
More books, even though she's barely able to read the ones she insisted on me bringing; wants me to buy more books, because she saw a good review in the Locus Magazine, or its part of a series she'd been reading -- and I don't have the heart to remind her that most of the many many books she used to own ended up in the dumpsters because we couldn't save or store them all (my book-lover's soul screamed in pain for days)....
and I am so tired, still. And that's not even mentioning Riza's repair work.
And being gone so often these past six weekends has wreaked havoc with Loki's training and its like starting all over again from when we brought him home over a year ago....
More books, even though she's barely able to read the ones she insisted on me bringing; wants me to buy more books, because she saw a good review in the Locus Magazine, or its part of a series she'd been reading -- and I don't have the heart to remind her that most of the many many books she used to own ended up in the dumpsters because we couldn't save or store them all (my book-lover's soul screamed in pain for days)....
and I am so tired, still. And that's not even mentioning Riza's repair work.
And being gone so often these past six weekends has wreaked havoc with Loki's training and its like starting all over again from when we brought him home over a year ago....
